I want to share an inspiring real-life story that I picked up from
www.advancedbc.org. Cindi has been in treatment for NINE years for metastatic breast cancer. It's a battle that she's been fighting beautifully:
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A Message of Hope from Cindi
posted to the BCMETS mailing list, December, 2008:
I wanted to pass along my encouraging story and give others a bit of hope for the holiday season.
I've been in treatment for NINE YEARS now for metastatic
breast cancer. Several times along the way my doctors have been honest
with me about my situation and I prepared for the worst. I have bone
mets in 98 percent of my body and even broke a small bone in my foot last year without even knowing it. I always say "Ask me where I DON'T have
cancer, it's much easier". I don't worry about it though and keep on
doing my physical volunteer work. I'm a zoo keeper and have to lift 50
lb bags of feed, move wheel barrows full of dirt and poop and crawl up
ladders to work on the top of the animal enclosures. I rake, shovel and
have to stay alert to all the animal care procedures that are always
changing. It exhausts me and at times I think I can't do it anymore.
I'll be 55 years old this month and most people I work with are under 25
and healthy, LOL. I love my job though and I feel it's been the reason
for my continued survival. It's almost a mile from parking the car to
the area I work it and just getting there is a major feat in inself.
There were times when I counted each step, telling myself that I WOULD
make my legs keep working and I WOULD find the strength to walk all that
way. I was so stubborn, LOL, that I always managed.
Two years ago, the cancer moved in to my bone marrow and I
progressively got weaker and weaker. I needed blood (red and platelet)
transfusions, sometimes as frequently as every 2 weeks. My skin was
yellowish looking, my stomach always bloated and pain seemed to be
constant and unrelenting. I began to have migraines that kept me in bed
for days too.
Last year the cancer moved to my lungs and liver and my oncologist
was very grim in his prognosis. Being a realist, I totally agreed with
him and again made preparations for the worst. After a year on Abraxane
and Avastin, my tumor markers gradually came down and things seemed to
stabilize. Last month I realized that it's been months since
I've needed a transfusion. My doctors and nurses just shake their heads
and said they've never seen such a turn around with bone marrow disease.
I can breathe better now and don't even know I have liver mets.
Just had a bone scan and again, my oncologist shook his head and said
he'd never seen a report like mine. It showed that all cancer tumors
are dormant and no evidence of activity anywhere. Unbelievable....I've
never had a report like that as the cancer has always progressed, year
by year. He also can't believe I haven't had any bones break. I drive
him crazy telling him about the things I do in my zoo keeper job. He
thinks I should quit doing it. I've told him when **** freezes over and
that's that.
Of course I realize that this may be temporary but the trick to
successfully living with cancer and not letting it take over is to not
let it take over. I choose not to spend my time worrying about when
things will change for the worse again but instead use the time
productively to enjoy every single thing about living. That's not me
preaching to anyone but instead, just my way of dealing with it.
I'm no cheerleader, believe me, but I do think that we all need to
hear encouraging stories. I remember my darkest days and how grim
everything looked. I remember how much I needed to hear that someone
else had survived what I was living through.
Sorry this is so long but I wanted to pass along my thoughts and
share my story with all of you who are trying to survive another day. I know
how you feel.....it's so hard and such a struggle. I hope it helps to
hear from someone who has lived with mets for 9 years and managed to
have a good quality of life.
Sending prayers (for those of you who will accept them), positive
thoughts, gentle hugs and special admiration for all my cancer sisters.
You are such brave, inspirational people.....never forget it.
Love and Happy Holidays, Cindi